A letter to my babies.....

Asher Gene and Kendyl Stevie x

My two little ratbags

How you bring so much happiness to my life

Sure I grumble and I groan

and I moan at you to do this and to not do that

But the love I have for you is so deep

so unfathomable

So raw and so full

And it amazes me

How this love I have for you

began even before I first heard your hearts beat

increased when I did

and just overflowed when I got my first glimpse of you

I Love you

even though you sometimes don't listen

and make me so darn cross that I feel like exploding

I Love you, even when I'm disappointed about your actions

I Love you more than I could ever explain to you

I cringe when I see you're about to get hurt

I want to save you whenever possible

I want to wrap you up and protect you from everything bad in the world

I want to take your sickness when you're unwell

I want to make you better even if it costs me

Because I Love you so much

Being a Mum has changed me

It's made me scared.........worried all the time about you

It's made me feel like an overprotective Rottweiler

ready to defend you at the click of a finger

It's made me a control freak

I don't want you to hurt

I don't want you to be worried or scared

I don't want you to suffer rejection

I don't want you to be lonely, made fun of, or to be picked on

But as much as I don't want all of that...I want you to LIVE

I want you to LEARN

I want you to know that it's okay to come last in the race

It's okay not to be the coolest kid in the class

It's okay that we haven't got the best car/house/bikes (insert object here)

Whatever happens......YOU will always be loved

You were always wanted, longed for, dreamt about

You were our miracles, given by God when doctors said we'd never have you

You will always have Me

You will always have Dad

You will always have Grandparents who think you're just awesome

Aunties and Uncles who wanna hang out with you and know how you're doing

Cousins who miss you when you're not around.

You will always be loved

You will always be wanted

You will always be Good enough!

You will always have us.........even when you don't necessarily want us

You will always have us.

I Love you my babes

Love Mum xx