Wednesday, 29 August 2012


**Warning…some of the things talked about in this blog are not very nice…they’re TRUE, but awful as well… just thought I better let you know so you can just skip this post if you’re easily disturbed.

I don’t know about you guys/girls out there, but I know that since I have had children and become a Mumma, I’m never too short of things to worry about…….especially when it comes to my children’s safety/wellbeing.

Well, Yesterday, I just happened to hear a news report about a new drug that’s doing the rounds overseas, and is becoming quite worrying for police/security and those having to deal with it.  And the more I read/watched videos, the more I began to worry for my children, but for ANY children…in fact anyone that is around this drug or those taking it.

They are Synthetic drugs, such as Mephedrone are the new “designer drugs” and they’re being sold on the streets under the name “Bath Salts”…the ingredients are LEGAL!!

Now I don’t usually get too worked up about this kind of thing, but the more and more I researched them, the more terrifying it became.

People under the influence of “Bath Salts” manifest in a way that I can only describe as “possessed”….it has been labeled the “Zombie drug”  They’re quite scary, and cannot be reasoned with.  Apparently Police say that the scary thing about this is that even people who are small/petite get out of control, they have tried to use the taser on “out of control” users, but have found they have to be tased at least 7 or 8 times before it becomes effective enough to do anything with them.  It has taken up to 10 police officers at times to be able to contain the drug user…….they become violent, and an underlying theme with those under the influence is cannibalism….   There was a recent case in the international news about a man who ate the face off a homeless guy.  Horrendous stuff!  Frightening stuff.

There are videos all over the net of people in a “Zombie” state, after having used “bath salts”.  Not just of them at home, but in the streets, on trains, in amongst the general public………. How scary is that?

I used to worry about the damage a pit bull could do if it escaped into the public, but to be honest, this new drug  ….. and its users being free to wander among people…among US, and our children, and our friends and loved ones!.. I find just as scary, if not scarier!

Do you think I’m being “over the top” , or do you also find this really scary too?

Tuesday, 28 August 2012

New things..

Sometimes it takes a little while to adjust to "new things" doesn't it?

So often we try something once, don't particularly like it, and then write it off, without giving it a fair and good try.  A new place... a new person... a new way of doing something.... a new food.... a new way of life.

I was beginning to think that perhaps "daycare" for Kendyl might not be "right" for her.

She was fine when we were in the "settling in" period.  But when it came time for me to do a drop and go the proverbial poo hit the fan!  (and it was not a pretty sight!) haha.

There was screaming.....the kind with eyes wide open, frightened, no "terrified". Tears, lots and lots of tears... there was negotiating..she was saying "Please mummy don't go and I will be good, and I will listen...and I will be really happy........"  Oh man it was heartbreaking.

As I had never "done" daycare before (since we were solely playcentre etc with Asher)... I had absolutely no idea how to go about the seperation process....
Do I do the "hard" method and just say... "'re staying here" and out the door I go?   (those of you who know me how ridiculous this is for me to even consider...haha).  I might go on and on and on about how this child of mine has driven me crazy since her arrival ...........actually no even BEFORE her arrival...with her antics....... but at the end of the day, I love her, I miss her and I really do hate seeing her so anxious/worried.

Or, do I do the "there there my baby...okay I'll stay another 5 minutes".... sit and play with her for 5 mins until she calms down, then repeat the whole "freak out" session again......???  What do I do? How do I do it? How do NORMAL people do it?

Then a couple of nice carers at the centre stepped up and said... you say goodbye to her, we'll take her to do some pictures etc after she's said goodbye and she'll be fine after a little while.
So we did that.  She was still quite distraught, but she settled down quickly (apparently).  .. I know this as I was so "over the top crazy first time daycare mumma" that I rang back about 3 times  harrassing people to see if she'd settled... and "were they sure".  

** I know what you're all thinking.... Oh man... poor centre having to deal with Juanita!...and you're right!**

So, those first few times, I'd drop her off in a up the road, unable to see the road due to the copious amounts of tears welling from my own eyes....have to pull over and end up in a heaving sobbing terrible mess......then ringing my husband to try and share some of the awfulness with him!! haha.  (I know everyone's rolling their eyes about now, but I'm just being honest)  I would love to have a tale of me being all brave and okay about leaving her there....but I wasn't I was a MESS!!

I had a good ol' natter to a friend of mine, who worked in the childcare industry before having her bub... and she gave me a few "hints" about how to leave her.

Arrive at the centre..hang up Kendyls bag, say to Kendyl, alright, come on lets find ... *insert carer/teachers name here* and she can look after you when Mum leaves....etc (she put it much better)...
Now, yesterday I got to try it out.... and to be honest, I didn't REALLY like my chances, as this kid was so stressed previously.
So over the weekend I had been "gearing her up" for daycare...saying... Oh and tomorrow will be daycare, what fun things do you think you'll do tomorrow?"  (even though I had begun to really dread Mondays coming around again)... I tried to stay positive, and she was buying into it.
"I want to make Papa a picture for his birthday" she said...
Then yesterday on the drive there, she was speaking so positively about the centre...she said "you are going to stay for a little while aye Mummy??" and I said "Yes, I will hang up your bag and find Nicky, and you can do a picture and Mummy will be back later" ...................... "Okay Mummy" she said, no hesitation whatsoever.  Negative me kept thinking... "Oh yeah, wait til we get there"
So we arrive... she is so excited as she FINALLY has her name on her bag peg.......BONUS!  "Hi Macey, Hi Keira, Hi Anji" she said to everyone, and she disappears with them!!?
Oh my...
Oh my... I think .. surely it cannot be this easy??

Then she runs back.... "I have found Nicky" she said, "you can go now, we are going to play and then do our picture"    My baby leans in...squeezes me, kisses me and waves bye bye....   I turn to go and open the door and then she starts yelling... "Mummy Mummy Mummy...." ....... Oh no here we go....
"Mummy...... can you get me a treat too for being GOOD?" she says with a cheeky smile...   Oh man, how could I NOT!!

And then I watch her run back out to Nicky who's waiting for her at the painting station!!!!

Wow... I feel relieved, and like a huge burden has lifted off of my shoulders.
How will I spend my next 6hours not pacing, watching the clock, worrying, fretting...???    I know, I will go spend some of hubbys money! heehe.

If you'd have asked me last week what I thought of daycare it would have been a total contrast to how I am feeling today............some things just take a little time :)

Monday, 13 August 2012

Prayers for my Sis.

I want to thank ALL of you who have been praying and interceding on behalf of my wonderful Sister in law Aveena, who is battling, fighting, against a horrible cancer (then again which cancer is NOT horrible!).. called Ewings sarcoma.  Thank you for your thoughts, your prayers, your love, not only for my Sister, but for my little bro, and their 4 little kiddies whose lives have all been greatly affected by this nasty disease.
Av & Bob, wedding day
Av & Bob baldies <3

My Dad and My sis in law
Taikaha 9yrs, Bobbi 2yrs, Charlize 7yrs (their kids).. My Kendyl... Faith 6yrs (their daughter) and My Asher.
Even though she's facing all of the chemotherapy (she's on triple dose Chemo), and subsequently all of the side effects that go hand in hand with it....and even though she's unable to be with her babies, (as she has to remain in Auckland, and the family are in Kaitaia), her faith is unwaivering....
 she has her eyes on God and is so quick to praise him.  She is so very very positive, and so steadfast in her belief that her God has this sorted... and that he knows best! Isn't that awesome!?

It's so much better facing tough situations like this with God...knowing he's there and has your back!  It doesn't mean it makes it EASIER... just better.  Knowing that so many of you, and other friends/family have been standing with our family in prayer during this tough time has been such a major help! It feels like the load is being shared!!

To Leonie and Kristy, thank you guys for the beautiful beanies!  I will have to get a picture of Avee wearing them to post for you to see!!  You guys are a blessing, and I pray that you'll be just as blessed by others!! x

Gorgeous...with hair or without!

The whanau shaved too!

Where she'd love to be...home with whanau and babies
Can't wait to have her home at gatherings!

Week before she went into hospital

with one of her babes

Sunday, 12 August 2012

LOVE IS............

A surprise bar of choccy arriving in the mail :)  

It's lovely to find out that "someone out there" cares about ya, and has taken the time to get a bar of choc sent to you!  Thanks to "The Sisterhood" who I have yet to track down (but will link their site here), and a huge hug to whoever that lovely person was who nominated me!  I don't know who you are, but again, I will track you down!! ;)

What a blessing, just what I need in among all the other "goings on"

It's made me more aware of how I can bless someone else today too!

Friday, 10 August 2012

Cuddles through the fence

I'm making the very most of the time that my boy is cuddly and wants to be around me.......haha. At the moment he's in a place where he can't get enough Mummy cuddles and kisses and praise/attention (particularly the GOOD attention, but occasionally the BAD attention!).

Today as I was on duty at Playcentre and feeling a little frazzled (the day started badly with lots of appts/phone calls and other mini dramas).... and just on the edge of screeching at the screechy yelling kids.....  I looked up and out the window ..........and saw beyond the "bars" of the school/playcentre fence my 8yr old smiling at me and waving ferociously!

In that instant, my heart cheered up, a smile broke out on my face, and I couldnt wait to rush out and smack him with my lips! :)

As I got to the fence though, i noticed 2 of his friends standing off out the back a little.... so I thought I better ask his permission to cuddle/kiss him through the fence.... (incase it wasn't COOL infront of your friends!).
"Don't be silly Mum......" he said.  "I always want to cuddle you!!"  *melt*.
"Shall we pass on the kiss though?" I whispered.
"NOOOOO kiss me!" he answered!! So he got a nice big kiss too, and didn't care when his mates muttered and carried on! hahaha.

Just last week he said to me he'll never get embarrassed of me... (yeah right I thought...)  and then he said.. "because you're cooler than heaps of sing in a REAL band!" hahahaha..
Guess I can't quit the band any time soon then if I want to stay looking cool in the eyes of my big boy!! haha

Don't you love kiddy snuggles... I love em so much, they make all the "other mummy moments" so worthwhile!! ;)

Have a great weekend you lovely Mums/Dads xxxxxxxx